Meditation

    Meditation is not what a lot of people think that it is, It's not sitting around bored in silence. Meditation is finding the truth, Its finding yourself. In meditation you learn who you really are quiet and still with your thoughts you learn all about yourself the parts you like the parts you hate, you start to question everything and if your quiet enough if your still enough you get answers. Think of your mind as a task manager, After going through your day you have so many thoughts going through your head and do you ever take time to clear them? or do you stew in your problems thinking that somehow thinking about the problem enough will help solve it, when quite the contrary is true your causing your body stress and anxiety. Most people walk around overthinking things, I still fall victim to this sometimes, but meditation has dramatically changed it. Our minds constantly strive to find problems with things, the news is constantly striving to put the media in a state of fear and lack and people believe it.

    If only you knew who how much power you really have inside of you. You have within you all the power and light of god and heaven. You are a focal point of god experiencing himself. I believe in the beginning of creation there was a sea of energy, this energy was pure light and pure love and it became aware of itself and it knew that it was magnificent and so it wanted to experience itself so it split itself into 3 places by finding a focal point within (meditation) it split itself to here there and nowhere. I did this so it could interact with itself and experience itself and all of the glory and divine it knew itself to be, and it's doing that through you!. death does not exist but rather is a transition into a higher state of being. The universe is one giant being interacting with and experiencing itself but we are all one light.

    The perceived separation we have is an illusion or a game the universe plays with itself and also a way that the soul experiences individuality while still being part of the whole, and death is a chance to rethink and recreate where you had left off. Taking time to meditate not only has tremendous health benefits but it helps you step outside the illusions of need, greed, anxiety, fear, death,lack and pain. It helps you learn who you really are and you you wanna become, you remember that you are here to love to create and that there is no god outside of you. god speaks through you, through other people, your dreams, angels, do not look outside for god for that is the illusion god is always within you if only you take the time to listen. 

My Path To Enlightenment

        After spending the first half of my life being abandoned, lied to, cheated on, I found myself questioning what I had done wrong? I felt as though I was a good person I always treat people the way I want to be treated. I grew up in a family with a father who beat me to the point where I thought I might die a few times, always slamming doors and cabinets and hitting my mother, I found at a very early age I didn't like fighting and I didn't understand how people could say such hurtful things, I knew I could never be like that. My father pretty much acted like I didn't exist and when I did exist it was only as an outlet for his pain. He never laid a hand on my brother even when he did something I'd be punished, this left me feeling so confused inside, the amount of damage this can do to a kids psyche untreated is unimaginable. I found salvation in being a good person and doing the best I could to be everything that I felt that he wasn't.

     Then the first girl I truly fell in love with came into my life. She was everything I could have asked for and more, I loved just spending time with her. I did everything I could to make her happy or hear her laugh was the highlight of my day. The relationship went through a bunch of rough courses we went on 2 breaks that she wanted then finally broke up.  After we broke up I  found out she had cheated on me at least 1 time I knew about not to mention throughout the course of our almost 4 year relationship. What hurt the most is I loved her so much I avoided arguments just because I didn't wanna fight, I could go on but I won't to keep it short. I had undergone A lot of emotional abuse and I internalize my pain as I don't agree with arguing or fighting I just never saw the point. I found myself asking why? why me what had I done to be lied to, cheated on, manipulated I did everything I could to help people I went through about a year period of drinking to mask the pain then smoking anything I could do to not feel, to not be here in the present moment it just hurt to much and I didn't know how to deal with it.

    Scrolling through netflix one day probably about 2 years ago I found a movie called the secret and decided to watch it. The secret introduced me to quantum physics and the idea the thought become things and how we can use our imaginations and our faith to bring into our lives anything which we desire. I highly reccomend watching it if you haven't seen it yet \,the movie was based off of books by Abraham hicks specifically the book ask and you shall receive. I never used to read but I found myself reading lots of books on spirituality from buddhism to taosim to books on psychics, chakras, healing, meditation, self improvement. I cannot explain how much meditation can change you and how you perceive yourself and the world. When you start meditating and get back in touch with who you really are all the dramas of the world start to fade and you start gaining clarity, you start remembering who you really are, and I don't just mean who you are as a person I mean who you are as a soul. I've gained a lot of wisdom On my spiritual path and I'd like to share it with all of you from all of the hurts and pains to all of the joys and divine love I've found. I always believed in god but never considered myself a christian. I saw the similarities within all the religions and quickly saw that god had given us choice. the fact the people argue over religion is ridiculous and only causes separation for all religions are based on love and faith. All religion is in essence the same and so is every human on this planet. We were given religion as a gift, a divine gift of choice and one should not judge anthers choice, you don't like being judged do you?